What if nothing exists and we're all in somebody's dream? Woody Allen

I feel sometimes like nothing is worth it. It might be the lack of sleep or that I'm becoming pessimistic. One wise friend told me there are only two infinite things in this world :-The universe and human stupidity- I used to laugh a lot but today this remark is just sad. I don't know what happened from my work to my house but today I feel so alone. I know I have a bunch of friends and quite a few very close ones but sometimes I wonder if they really know me. Or I'm just leaving to their expectations? I usually don't care what people think about me . I f I'm too nerdy, geeky, snobbish, too nice (to hell with nice), mean, sarcastic, cold hearted bitch, and the biggest of all the ones who think that they can question my decisions and my sexuality. Usually I am who I am whether someone likes it or not. But today I don't know is different I think I forgot my thick skin coat somewhere else. Today it just hurts to be the not so cold hearted bitch they say I am. I really need a hug. Today I wish I believed that love is democratic and for everyone. That really there is someone out there for me. I'm really certain that it might not happen to me. That I won't have the fantastic romance they present in movies speachless and with two people laughing and doing silly things while playing corny music. Maybe I'm just too bitter today and everything will look brighter tomorrow. Or maybe not...